New Year New YOU, HUH?????

On my quest to be more .... well more human I guess I decided to do resolutions this year. my thought process surrounding this is that I wanted to harness the energy that was so abundant in the world as the NEW YEAR (yes I could challenge the idea that the year starts on January 1st but I digress) approached.

I am not going to list them here. This blog is about making the most of your current situations as they are happening. Its not  about waiting for some magical time to approach so that you can set out on some amazingly difficult (if only in your own eyes) journey.

We make choices in every moment. These choices then become our realities. And let's be clear.... the lack of action, thought, belief, ideas or even availability is still a choice.

In the present moment I am choosing to be productive with this blog. A choice I hope to remain committed to. Commitment again being a choice.

When I look at things through the idea that everything is a choice what I believe to be true change.

I saw somewhere a discussion about freedom and control. It lead me directly to the thought process of ...

"My thoughts become my beliefs my beliefs are my truth therefore my truth lay in my thoughts . What I think I believe to be true!" - TL

"This now is now the past as this now was once the future now I now know."- TL

As the discussion progressed I began to think that freedom is only achieved in the mind. Just as control is only perceived in the mind.  Yes, I have read
Breaking the Chains of Psychological Slavery by Na'im Akbar  and 
The Mis-Education of the Negro by Carter Godwin Woodson

SO the idea of a new me became completely available to me. I look forward to possibilities as I am firmly rooted in the present now of it all. I am is a beautiful yet extremely powerful statement.

Con Amor,
Love is...TL

A thought 12/5/2012

Here is an observations I have had the past couple of weeks. During the week I am up from 445/5 am until 10/11 pm everyday. Currently I am exchanging some negative thought patterns with more positive and healthy thought patterns and I have come to several realizations. The first is I have to be more aware of what I am eating through out the day. I, for whatever reason, will forget to eat most of the day. I am not sure if I do it intentionally or if it just happens. This leads me to the the second which is that I have to become more aware of when I am eating. I realize that eating at 955 pm every night is not healthy. I also realize that not eating anything at all morning is also not very healthy. Which brings me to my last realization. I have to be fully aware what I am eat. Starches in the evening are my downfall. I know I do not have to give up all of my starchy, sugary, carbie, sweet and oh so yummy foods. I truly just have to find times when they are most beneficial to me within my day.

So what is my resolve.... what can I effectively do to be a better healthier eater for myself. First have water before I eat. This will help hydrate and fill me up. Second I will make a eating schedule. Better to be prepared then not eat at all. Third no yummy greatness via starch, sugary, carbie or sweet food 6 hours before bed time. For me that magic time is after 530pm during the week. That is so completely doable, who knew. Fourth I need to meal plan. This step also helps my expenses. By meal planning I can develop recipes around the three prior steps to ensure I adhere to them. One of the many issues I have had over the past couple of weeks is what to eat. I often grab something quick which turns out to be unfulfilling and full of everything I do not want to eat because of lack of time. Having my meals planned and and ready to go will afford me the opportunity to eat healthier while maintaining a lifestyle I choose to lead.

I also realize that I need constant reinforcement to truly change. I usually get that reinforcement through reading books and look at YouTube video on the subjects at hand.  For these changes I will be reading books from Bob Harper. I am also very impressed by his Instagram page, you should look it up if you haven't already.

Con Amor,

Love is...TL

A thought for 11/26/2012

My thought for today is that of HOLIDAY. What does holiday truly mean in its purest sense. My thoughts lead me down many roads when I think about the word Holiday and its meaning. Of course Holy day and time off of work also comes to mind. Though I think that the actual meaning of each day is lost somewhere between what must get done during a holiday and what I would like to see happen during a holiday.

I'm not a big Thanksgiving person... never have been. I'm not a big eater so I don't look forward to stuffing myself all day with tons of food. This year I was feel some kind of way about Thanksgiving. Usually I have an anti-Thanksgiving way of being due to the multitude of deaths the Native American people experienced on that day yet it is so how celebrated but not this year. I was lead down the road of making each day your own way of thinking. I have been fighting and bucking the system for so long, it seems that I've lost myself within it somehow. I have been consumed with the lack of compassion that my passion is often to fight what is. Knowing this I realized that I have the power within me to create my own understanding of a HOLIDAY. I could take that day and reflect on the evils of the world or I can take that day and create one that is conducive to my way of thinking/being at that time.

I started to think what could be accomplished on a day where I do not have to work, my child is out of school and most people are preoccupied with family. My daughter is now 14 years old and spending time with her is precious. I would love to be able to do something constructive with her every year that is not based around eating. Scrap booking and crafting came to mind. I am thinking that in years to come her and I will make cards, gifts and scrap book on Thanksgiving. Making thanksgiving more about giving thinks rather than receiving thanks. It would also be a great time to set goals, intentions and aspirations for the next year. And since we have to eat we could cook something together that is new and exciting each year.

I give thanks daily and hope my daughter see and will reflect that but if not one day out of the year would not be all that bad to reinforce what I believe to be true.


I realize that while what happened is wrong my personal fight against what had already occurred only made it that much worse for myself. I am more about the ABUNDANCE conversation then the LACK conversation. In keeping with that sort of spirit I say.......

Next up.... Christmas..... which I have not celebrated in over 20 years.